Its almost time to go back home!

So I haven't even posted anything for a long time and now is almost christmas. I think I got a real good taste of reality and everything is so much to take in. If you asked me one year ago where I would be this is the last place I would have guessed, my optimistic attitude --- out the window, I haven't been myself and it is so depressing, I am an angry, mean, negative person latley and what bothers me most is I treat the people I love the most that way without a second thought, it feels horrible deep down. I have been talking with a counciler for mental health and they say I am probably suffering from post tramatic stress syndrome. I don't know what to think, all I know is I am not myself and that seems to be a issue I deal with throughout my life, but this time is different, before it was easily identified as drug addiction, this time I got no real excuse or reason and the thing is no one could even begin to understand what it is that I am going through. I wish they did, then it would be a hell of alot easier to understand myself. I WILL BE OKAY..... THIS TOO SHALL PASS......