Broken Backs Hurt!!!

I am so tired and I am sick of being stuck with nothing to do. I got to hang out with my cousin Jill today and her new baby, her other daughter looks alot like my daughter Ashley when she was younger. I am healing slowly but surely, I have been in alot of pain today. I have to keep reminding myself I am lucky to be alive. I really am. My memory is horrible from the brain injury I have a hard time remembering things and say off the wall things like, 2nd trimester instead of 2nd semester, its irritating, everything is latley. I just want to be back in my own home, but its been getting alot better here at my parents house. My sister will be here on the 20th with her husband and my 2 nephews, I am very excited, I miss them so much, I couldn't ask for a better sister. I haven't wrote for a while and I don't know why. I want to write some crazy stories but my mom has me all parinoid that the wrong person could read this and use it against me. For instance a job or something later down the road or in my life. I am really the type of girl who has nothing to hide, I am not ashamed to admit my wrongs and mistakes because it has made me the girl I am today, a surviver and someone I am proud to say I love now, yes me myself, I love me and am finally comfortable in my own skin. It took 15 yrs. but I am who I am, and proud of it. Does this sound lame or gay? What the hell who cares.